my poor brenda

this picture is from brenda's 15 birthday. i guess i couldve found a current one but i thought this would do. so my poor girl has a staph infection. yuck, not sure how she contracted it but sure enough she has it. the dr. put her on a high dose of meds to try and get rid of it but if it doesnt clear up by monday she will have to be admitted to the hospital. i am just gonna pray it doesnt come to that cuz i know she will not be happy at all. she will have to be sedated big time.... these are the sucky things about being a parent. i talked to the pharamicst and she was shocked at the high dosage of meds and told me what to watch out for as far as side effects. i guess this med can cause something we dont want her getting. go figure.

i go to my dr. tomorrow and the bad thing about that is having to step on that scale. ugh!!! i feel like the biggest person in the world. i cant believe how huge my stomach is. you want to know how huge? poor jojo came running to me for a hug and i turned and he bounced off my stomach and fell to the floor. who knows maybe i'm further along then any of them think. wishful thinking, right? i have been having contractions since last sunday but nothing big deal. although, yesterdays and todays have been worse. i keep saying she will probably come this weekend because its just bad timing. jason plays both fri and sat night and brenda not doing well and i work on sat. she will just have to wait but next weekend isnt looking good either. i have tea with friends on sat. and i really dont want to cancel with them. i am just done with being pregnant. i can hardly walk, i dont sleep longer than 45 minutes at a time. my clothes arent fitting, and the next person that tells me i'm big,fat, huge (whatever their choice of words might be) i think i will pretend i'm not even pregnant and make them feel like an idiot. or i guess i could just start crying like a crazy person and i bet they would never say that to anyone again. the crossing guard at nics school today said, "its because your heavy." uh HELLO.... i have to excuse him cuz he is old and a man at that.... now that i have gone on one of my pregnant induced ramblings i feel a little better. talk about cheap therapy.....